Making Friends

So I've realized within the last few months I have a serious problem with making friends. It sounds silly I know, but it's true and it is devastating. I tend to be, in my mind, extremely awkward and socially impaired.  I've been told this is not the case, but being the paranoid, self conscious person that I am, it's obvious they were just saying this to make me feel better.  When it comes to a social situation, I'm always on the outside looking in.  Everyone is always trying so hard to impress everyone else, it reminds of a circus.  They all have their little tricks they are doing, trying to stand out to the crowd and outwit the clowns next to them.  And i'm the child sitting in the bleachers wondering what the hell is going on.

Another big problem I have is with girls. I have never been able to pin point why, but I can only manage to keep a girl friend for a short amount of time before they become unbearable.  It's never anything big that they do either, it's just the little things I notice.  I think it's possible that I am just very unlucky and have come across the most annoying girls in history. Even still, it's unfortunate and feels like a disease.  I wouldn't mind doing all the stupid things girls do together, whatever that may be. I just need to find that one special girl that doesn't make me want to kill children. I hope she is out there somewhere.
 

So hopefully you assumed by now that I get along best with guys, rather than plants or something of that nature.  A guys sense of humor I think is what I relate to most, and I tend to connect better with them.  However, there is a problem here too..guys have ridiculously giant egos.  They think that since I am willing to be their friend, want to hangout, and laugh at their jokes it means one thing; I am totally willing to do them. Which of course is not the case. When they find out I'm only interested in being friends and don't actually want to do them, it's a drastic blow to their ego. And instead of sucking it up like a man, they decide the cold shoulder is the best solution. I don't know, maybe I have overwhelming good looks and charm they cannot handle.  Whatever it is, it's quite frustrating because I have to go through the same annoying situation time after time, which inevitably leads to me having no one to complain to.  So I guess that's what you are here for.

Thanks for listening =D

Day of Pointlessness

This is officially my first blog posting ever!  I am not sure what to write about and how exactly to treat it.  I find it odd because it kind of feels like I am writing in a diary.  However, this serves the exact opposite purpose of a diary since anyone that wishes to read it can.  Maybe I should treat it that way though, considering there isn't a high likelihood of people going to read it.  Then if someone does come across it and I have all my deepest darkest secrets exposed, it will be way way more interesting XD

I guess I could write about my day and stuff like that.  So today was basically the most boring day ever.  It was also extremely pointless.  On days like today that I don't have work, I always wake up with high hopes on what it could hold.  I think of all the things I can accomplish and get done.  Like 'Oh Boy!, I can finally get college stuff set up for the fall!'  Or 'Today is the day that I will put away my laundry and finish cleaning my room'.  My favorite one is the one where I think of all the potential people I can hangout with and get to know.  But, after being awake for a whole hour and pondering the day i'm going to have, I decide a nap sounds fantastic.  When I wake up again, I still have great expectations for the day.. but at the moment, laying in bed watching Seinfeld feels pretty damn good.  Then 4:30 rolls around and I think showering would be a good idea to start off the day.  But that's more complicated then it sounds because you see, I am going to want to workout before the day is over and it would be silly to shower now, workout, then have to shower again. So the obvious solution is to wait another half hour until I have the energy to workout, and then I can shower. 

After all of that is said and done, I realize that my parents are out of the house for the night. Which is something that just cannot go to waste.  See, I usually have to wait until they go to bed around 9 to be able to escape my room and enjoy the rest of the house. Just so happens, every other Saturday they have bowling. This means I get the whole house to myself for a couple hours of actual daytime.  Rather then trying to find something to do, I decide to take advantage of an empty house.  This fabulous night to myself was going to be spent watching a movie.  I chose Aronofsky's The Wrestler.  One of the few movies by my favorite director that I had not seen, so I knew I wouldn't be disappointed.  When the movie ended it was about 8:30, and the day wasn't turning out to be as incredibly awesome as I had hoped.  When I  looked at the time I convinced myself it was way too late to try to find plans.  So I spent the rest of the night laying on my couch watching Castle! 

I can't wait to see what tomorrow holds XD